Storks- A DPH HCI Drug Log (250mg)

*** Disclaimer: This is a log and reflection on my personal experience of the consumption of 250mg of Diphenhydramine HCI, an uncontrolled substance known to be fatal in excessive consumption. I have personally dedicated hours of research on this drug's composition, effects, and consequences. Not only do I discourage the consumption of such a chemical for the sake of health in general, but I'd personally discourage its recreational use for anyone looking for a "legal high". If you insist on consuming it, I'd strongly encourage doing so with a sober person or persons present, as they can prevent you from risking harm to yourself, as well as present positive stimulation that contributes strongly to an enjoyable experience. My experience with the substance allows me to safely consume the substance without company present.

Even in moderate amounts, the dissociative hallucinogen can cause an unpleasant nauseating sensation, vomiting, paranoia, difficultly breathing, paralyses, difficultly swallowing, numbness, as well as the side effects listed here. 

Do not under any circumstances operate a vehicle/dangerous machinery, nor expose yourself to dangerous electrical, heat/fire producing elements, or attempt to swim in open water.I took the risks of the drug strictly for personal entertainment, as well as public education. Any concerns, questions, or advice you'd like to share can be sent to me here. ***




Update 5/20/17 5:55PM: This is definitely going to be one of the wordiest posts on the site, if not the most, as I wanted to be extremely thorough on my explanation of the night's events. I hope you find the post entertaining. The actual log of me typing during the experience is found at the very bottom of the entry. You can try to make sense of it on your own for shits and giggles, or comment an excerpt you'd like translated, and I'll do my best to decipher it. Please note, however, I have very little memory of what occurred.


NEXT DAY UPDATE (5PM)

I came back to check the blog, and apparently I had published this post with only the log. No memory of doing so.

I woke up at 3PM today, so I'm guessing the pills knocked me out around 5 or 6 AM, though I likely stopped typing and logging close to 5 AM, due to lack of mobility and focus.

I meant to do time stamps, but was unable to focus or type.

The usual drowsy hangover didn't seem to take effect, but I'm guessing that's because I didn't have to get up, so I was able to sleep through it.

My DPH hangover usually comes in 3 stages over the course of two days. All three of which are characterized by dilated pupils.

Stage 1 typically happens within one hour of getting out of bed, and lasts for up to 5 hours or so. This stage is characterized by subtle visual hallucinations, similar to those that occur within the first hour of taking them. Red and blue dots chasing each other around my vision, like a Star Wars battle.

Stage 2 is the most miserable drowsiness, and it usually overlaps with stage one. Poor motor skills, most apparent when attempting to walk. Your eyes don't hang low, but they're blank, and your body assumes a stone-like stillness.

Stage 3 typically occurs a whole 24 hours after consumption, though I've experienced it a whole two days after, in my previous endeavors. This is characterized by the extreme rush of energy. Not so much like caffeine's nerve-frying restlessness, but a desire to feel accomplished. Quite euphoric, and I've been told that my pupils are especially big during this stage. hyperactive, almost obnoxiously so, as well as hypersensitive, similar to the second hour of consumption.

Today, or rather, this evening, I seem to have skipped straight to Stage 3.
I got out of bed right away, cleaned the room at a rabbit's pace, started cooking dinner, played the little electric piano in my room after not playing for months, and worked out. Hands are considerably shaky even after writing this for 30 minutes, but I'd like to attribute that to the rapid work out.

I find myself very focused, another characteristic of Stage 3 I forgot to mention earlier.

As for what I remember..

I played the animated movie Storks to serve as "positive stimulation", which I believe is essential when consuming hallucinogens, as unpleasant trips can occur when exposed to loud noises, bright/strobing lights, rapid/sudden movement,  or any other sudden sensational overload. I'd recommend quiet company that's aware of your state, enjoyable music, happier colors, soft lights, and a warm, comfy resting zone as positive stim. Refrain from talking to anyone who's not aware of your state. It's like drunk calling but worse. Avoid going out in public, as the dissociative properties become most apparent here. Refrain from being in a working/learning environment. This is definitely the most antisocial drug, particularly in larger doses.

The first indication that the drug had taken effect was the stiff, numbness in the hands. This was apparent with the depreciating typing accuracy. at one point I remember having to stare hard at the keyboard to ensure I was hitting the proper keys. Zoning out became common right away, and I humored myself as I blacked out in the middle of typing, my finger resting on a letter of the keyboard.

Time perception was way off. The clock read 3:45 after what only seemed to be a few minutes. I checked my progress on the movie at the time and it only read that was 25 minutes in. I believe I started the movie right at 3:00AM,  so it didn't add up. I've no memory of ever pausing the movie.

I'd lose memory of what I was saying or doing the second after it happens, and you can't really separate reality from what's going through your head at a mile a minute. Touching my hands together, while they're both hypersensitive, seemed to create an odd, scraping sound that I found amusing.

I coined the term "sensory overload" for any loud noises or sudden movements that seem to make me lose focus. These seem to cause a second-long blackout, and I wasn't sure if it actually happened or not. This would happen in some more intense parts of the movie, and I'd find myself replaying the scene up to 6 times to make sure I didn't make it up in my head.

As for positive stimulation, I found the movie really enjoyable, even though I could only seem to focus my eyes on one character's face or movement at a time. This also seemed to make me rewind the scene. I found myself physically and mentally unable, and unwilling to turn on any music. The movie's expressive facial animations astounded me, as did some of its more sophisticated humor.

I seem to remember the movie better than my own physical movements. I found myself wanting to pause the movie for a second and sink into the pillow in the most blissful, vibrating sensation that made me feel like I was sinking into the cushion. Afraid to fall asleep so soon, I was thankful for the restlessness in my leg that would allow me to stay awake to keep watching the movie.

At the time, I was also instant messaging a friend of mine, as I'd promised to keep him updated. I found myself typing the same way I was in this log, unintelligible crossovers between hallucinations and excitement to share my experience. I'll see about getting some content from that chat into this log.

Appetite, as usual, completely vanished as the drug took effect. A typical response, and quite surprising considering the painful hunger I had before consumption at 3AM. The second granola bar, as well as what remained of my coconut water, was untouched. I didn't get the cottonmouth I usually experience, but remember trying to get out of bed for a drink of it. No memory of how all the food and drink and clothes was moved to the other side of my room.

The visual hallucinations were quite enjoyable, as the whole first 40 minutes of the drug taking effect were in my bedroom with the lights on. The white light of the Blogger interface was filled with swirls and twisting lines of rainbow colors, the letters danced on the screen as my fingers created them. My sheets and window swirled entertainingly in the edges of my vision, and everything seemed to blur unless I focused hard on it.

I vaguely remember getting up to urinate a second time. I remember examining myself in the mirror, my eyes not as dilated as expected. My crotch area was still completely paralyzed, and urination was painful, typical negative effect of the drug. Upon reentering my bedroom, I finally remembered to turn off the lights. The visual hallucinations, mixed with the unsettling darkness, filled me with dread, as I half expected a fiend or monster to emerge from the swirls in the corners of my eyes. I ran to the bed to resume the movie. I'd venture a guess that this took place around 5AM.

My diction seems quite overworked as I type this. I'd attribute it to the hyperfocus of Stage 3.

The final thing I'd like to address was the auditory hallucinations, which didn't commence until after the lights were turned off, a whole 2 hours after consumption. These, unlike the visual ones, were difficult to distinguish from reality. My bed is right beside my window, and I was almost certain I was hearing music playing right outside, something the neighbors might play for a barbeque. This made perfect sense at the time, and the temporary paralyses became more frequent , so I didn't investigate. At one point I heard a truck door closing outside in the driveway, somehow I was able to pinpoint where the noise seemed to be coming from. I believed it to be my father at the time, and panicked.

Time is now 5:52PM, will possibly update further if I can manage to remember anything else from last night. Here is my attempt at logging last night's experience. All the spacing and formatting is the same as it when I typed it. Enjoy!


5/20/2017
Gonna log this Diphenhydramine experience, as I wish I'd done for the first one.
Generic brand Allergy tablets.
Diphenhydramine HCI 25mg tablets, pretty standard. I purchased two packs of 6 tablets, about 1.50 for each. I was so stressed at the gas station, I forgot to buy candy. Will improvise.

Current time: 2:52AM, about to urinate. hopefully I can take em right at 3 to make logging easier.

Thirst: Slaked, plenty of saliva
Hunger: Pretty damn hungry
Energy: Enough to maybe work out... later.
Mood: Not great, am ready to get gone

Lights are on, I have my music and "Storks" for various positive stimulation.
Nervous about taking all 12, so Ill take 10 tonight (250mg) and maybe 8 next time.

a few seconds away from 3AM.

Coconut juice and fancy brand granola bars for snacks. LeTS DO THIS

The lil pink caplets have a bitter taste

I gotta resist a placebo, so I'll focus on denying any effects and watch the movie.

not even 5 minutes in and am already tearing into the first granola

8 mins in, not even tripping, but the movie's pretty great, I'll have to review it, assuming I remember it.


[+0:39] Drowsiness hitting really hard. time perception is off, feels like mere minutes ive laid here. Blissful drowsiness that leaves my skin warm and cool at once, tingling sensation.
Lightheaded and jittery, giggles. Difficulty typing starting to occur.  noticeable slowing of breathing rhythm.

JESUS Christ like 27 mins into the film has a bit of a sudden jump, the kinda thing that makes ya black out on DPH, sensory overload id like to call it. Fingers fel==

fingers feel heavier on keyboard, nearly paralyzed

50 mins in, TRIPPY ass movie, I find myself remind

rewinding a bunch of funnier parts , up to 5 times. Legs are oddly restless/uncomfortable

this movies so fucking trippy and gratifying

tingling really intense , particulary lin I

Particularly in legs, hands raelly rigid.

[+1:00]
typing at snails pace
the movies' really enjoyable
really slow typing
heavy
eyelids drooped
I keep wanting to turn offl ights
but also want coconuts water  (drymouth began, hunger diminished)

really lovely progress so far, the animation is solid, funny. fan
oh fuck it just hit
hands really nimb
numb
explains typing

fingers buzzing against each other
cant feel crotch area

really great so far

restlessness is hard to get used to

oh jeeze
cant differentiate between movie
and hallucinating
movie iss too solid
and all the fast motion parts mmake me zone out (sensory overload)

amazing
uh
forgot what iw as gonna say
oh
yeah amazing face numbness like hard
eyes fluttering, blinking a lot,
slight swirling of objecst outside of screen
corner of my eyes
I was paralyzed for a se
sec
fuck I cant find my cursor
its like its moving on its own and hiding
mild tickling itch on my backside
I cant will myself to turn off lights
or get up for anyting else at that matter

really okay, I hope 250 mg helps me pass
feet hypersensitive

I just wanna close my eyes for a second
shortcut to turning off lights lol

I doefor

I forgot what I was here to type
but hallucinations intensifying
lotsa blinking
sound in corner of eyes
pulsating there too
fuckin eave me on read
I gota
make u

lovely time ri

[1:04]
oh fuck
I have to hold my head
shadows really swirling hard
and lil flashes of light or color
and I forgot how to breathe just now for a sec

absolutely no denying I'm gone
ears super sensitive
hid e in personal contats

woa
its like verbal
auditory association
fuck I cant even explain shit rn
I fro

fuck I keep forgetting
moms spaghetti
what a lovely word

hella hard hallucinations
cant find cursor
I keep losing it but I wanna talk to you (mistook this to be the instant message chat)
fucking oaw
aweome
cant type its weirs


feet touching really oddly like heaviness
invisible weights but I don't trust those gioojes
hippies

its like a leaky hole in my head
not trya be emo
but this is a great cover pohot
PHOTOGAGAG
HAHA
fuck my guy I should get back to working before I see oy tonight
tonight
what a clean ass, friendly user base (expressing gratitude for Blogger)

I'm practically a monk
auditory hallucinations getting all tooo vivid
fuc k b
good stuff
if I sink into pillow now I'm done for for tehe night

I dhould chrck her Instagram
nobody with it

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super sidetracked
itchy ears
paralyzed again for a few soconds


every timei blink you jump

fuck I was about to start teens

this is fucking while
raelly gotta focus n breathing
I keep maming funny noices
can I confince myself into paranoia


what even si pro
profession just meansjooooooo
butt eels funny
OH SJHIT
nice visuals
really h
wtf
I DIDNT EVEN TYPE ANYTHING?
I JUST HALlucinated and they said they ddiid
what the fuckya== = big guy, whoy?
fuack'
oml this is too good

haven't evenshopthis is wild  highly effective night shit
splendid
except on nerve stuff
aaaaaaaa
 I wish I coil

shat we doin here, guys>
need background noise but wnna kep ioa
touching stuff feels weierd
especially in Odessa cbc
b c
ppl don't give a fuck
surprised yoy;re stull up beat
pupils
cant focus
and everytime I rub my ears or hair
they think its depression over

now its a fucking thirteen reasons why


for OCRS
congratsPae

when I touch my face it feels like as= stranger whenim humena
human
wtf man
too good

cant tell vocal cords
affom looks

adancing llook
oml
fuck
I'm looking at coconut water can
but I musnt
1:24 in and we still good
preqiel
sequal.=>?

idk.
actually have to look at keys while I type now /:
I think my dig is gone
if I turn off kights, I'm fuckd
effed in the A
as morty whae
he sacrified once
day at the office
Charlene
fuc kdude
WHOS CHARLENE though    (Charlene likely an auditory hallucination)
milk box here I come
cant type without exrtreem foc=u
focu
ad
NOt sure how I'm resp

ypu tryna add
I'm tryma  multiply c;      (smooth, Dan)

forgothow to swallpw
I'm like, leaning way further (here, I was sitting on edge of bed, leaning forward. why? dunno)
that I though


hearing step dad say "DANBY'  (auditory hallucinations)
DANNY

my name hs the wonderful kid
Kirby kabbie
extreme pupis for use
even it this just puppies, tjink
maks sounsa hintag  youy might enjoy
fucking wild man
I needa a cuddle xD    (Don't we all?)
no ho

wont post comment
oh forgot


THe sounds what wehavf
fro
infinite safey
I'm p I said ta

these might be fomty

idk man
I'm fuckin fone
gone
yoy think we',,get pizz


sound of ny kife
hands  scraoingoibliged


sound

The real one died ,in the train accident (ominous)


well sorry hun use your personalid kwho's cursur ssssssss


I might pass out here soon  (Paralyses+Drowsiness)
wild


mmg
now you are again
sound of hands rubbing is amazing
sound slike sanpaepr

cant type jack sqatt


pret NS tyoy HCcw

mt baby loves his new hacker mureal
fuck dude idk if ill make it anylonger
gonna turn up jams and sink in

loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
fuck
keep sleeping on weel
take cure baby doll
well* fuck cx

long live the queen
"kicks Jasper in fin    (sorry jasper)

yaeh summri tt night?
I'm all out tho
expet 2                    (clearly referring to the remaining pills)
except two
yeah I dunno u might back in asefc

I]no cluwe
but aist amazinsory if isound kike ad ummy
an the museum sors
omo




just like cinnamon
I feekbrb

getting a bit of shut eys
pale pulsating wirls wbh

I haven't a legit como
fuck lemme seduce you with poetry  (classic me)
don ttgi

boarding scjool made roll ujp mep just
\\gonna bask in light\
IM feeling too fuckin crzy mighlove you kitto
I cant
redram it tomorrow otp


excuse me/+?
hahd
fuck the as'ofad'sfml
my exit
gonn jam for a sec  d
oh shit I remember

just travel in time
buy all of them
trippy, kinda creepy in dark (scary hallucinations)
hugging yearbooks I a duunne young
The typing likely stopped around 5:30AM, when I'm assuming I finally succumbed to the blissful paralyses.